Visitation by Quan Yin

From a dreaming/channeling session on March 22, 2008:
I realized a common thread between many who “feel a storm coming;” even old friends who I have never had a spiritual/intuitive discussion with in the past. I wondered if there was more I should be doing so I decided to plan an intentional dreaming session.

Before going to bed I decided to ground myself and ask Tara for help and guidance as to what I and others should do to better prepare and help.

As I grounded I felt more and more tired…as I fell asleep I asked for a dream. My last thought was that I kept getting Tara & Quan Yin mixed together in my head.
In my first dream a terrible entity threatened us and appeared near the wall of the room i was in. I was feeling fear. I’m with someone male who is a lover or partner. He tried to protect me from the entity and it’s not working…the threatening face is still hoving near the wall.

I enfolded both of us in blue light…it’s strong and bright. I’m so confident and powerful but recognize the great danger. I loudly call out, “Isis!” The power of Isis comes through me, into me…I am Isis. I realize that I have winged arms wrapped around my partner…

(I wake up.)

Then I sleep, again. I’m in that state between wake and sleep…that state where I feel awake but paralyzed…and I slip back and forth between waking and dream in jerky starts several times.

I’m dreaming again…I express my gratitude and love for the previous dream and see someone flying towards me and through my bedroom window in the moonlight. No, she is floating or swimming towards me and we are surrounded by blue with moonlight shining down from the surface, above. We are both underwater and surrounded by blue and blue light. It is peaceful and I feel a sense of love surround me…I’ve never felt a sense of love this powerful.

I realize it is Quan Yin…she is in a white gown with her dark hair in a simple bun on the top of her head. I’m seeing her all in outline, every detail is perfect…she is transparent, though.

As she nears me and raises her face she transforms (or dissapears) and it is a long, scaley fish creature that actually makes contact with me. Again, the creature is somewhat transparent and every detail, every scale is shown in detailed outline. When the creature touches me I feel something moving through me, the energy is transforming something inside me. Extreme gratitude washes over me and I wonder what gift I’ve been given… I hold my hands up in front of my face and look at them, front and back, and purple/violet rays and energy radiated from them. I kept looking at them, transfixed.
As I awoke from this dream I received a word, “Ra!” and it was connected to Isis–or came from her.

Now, awake, I pondered this Ra thing…I had no idea what a Ra was. Was it some object or an ancient meditation symbol? No idea.

I did a little poking around on the internet and learned that Ra was the ancient Egyptian sun God and most certainly connected to Isis. Beyond that I’m not sure what this means to me.

I was thrilled to also learn that Quan Yin is connected with water and a wonderous water dragon…that is what the long, scaly fish creature, was…I was certain! I also learned that she is connected to something called the Violet Flame or Violet Ray and that it is a healing energy that has the power to transmute karma from other lifetimes. Hmmm.

later, my son Chris showed me a drawing he had made prior to my dream. It was a wheel of the 4 directions…Isis & Ra were representing two of the directions.

a very happy, sorta witchy, birthday

I have to laugh to myself as I’m running through the sand dunes, feeling the traces of my new power, my bobcat kitty running beside me on a leash. How funny and strange I must look to the muggles… Look at that woman in her purple mexican shirt, pierced nose and gauged, tribal earrings….that (now) 50-year-old woman with her shaggy, silvering hair blowing in the wind. It’s very weird how her cat is so wild looking and well trained on that leash. They say she is a witch or a shaman or something… In fact, do you notice she has some kind of wild energy about her, too. They say she turns regular, russet potatoes into magical purple ones…wonder what else she does? Wonder who she is??

We shall see…

Just woke up, turned on the computer, popped in one of my new David Starfire CDs ( thanks Julie! ) and let the kitties out of the bathroom (they choose 4am to start getting active so this is this month’s lazy solution) and chuckled when I realized some people actually have fancy, electrical gizmos installed to heat bath towls. No need for that here, the 15 lb pixiebob (or whatever he is) does a great job and he eyed me, sleepily, from his perch on top of the towel stack high above my head. ….hmm, come to think of it they look nicely, ironed now, too. After I pee and pull my pj pants up, I must be diligent to tuck the little string tie thingies into the pants….otherwise I risk being clawed as they look just like tempting, dangling cat toys. Little, white claw-shaped scars on my legs are a reminder, lest I forget.

Behind the computer monitor, the windows face northwest. I’m up in the trees, here, and the hemlock and spruce branches are moving in the breeze. The morning sun has that golden light, reminding me that the fall equinox will soon be here. The trees are thick but I can see hints of the sky behind them (the ocean is that way) and the outline of the magical mountain, Neahkahnie…and it’s clear today. Usually a fog hangs around it reminding me of those stories of Avalon and the Lady of the Lake. I should go hike up Neahkahnie today…a sort of pilgrimage for my 50th. It’s been a few months since I’ve been up there. The energy is powerful and, although it’s only about a 40 minute hike to the top, it’s not a journey I take lightly or do often. I’ve learned that the native americans who lived here, the Tillamook Nehalem tribe, did their vision quests up there on the high, craggy view point. The shaman did other things up there. I’m still trying to learn what…those are the stories they do not “share.” There is a shrine created by the pagans who live here…it’s been on the mountain 18 years or so. The shrine stone sits in a hidden spot near the saddle of the mountain, where the trail first reaches the mountains spine. It’s a bit more of a hike up and around to the very top. The energy is very different in the two places. Many people, people who have been here a very long time, will not go all the way to the top. They don’t like the energy. It scares them. It feels very male and very powerful in a very ancient, deep, dangerous sort of way.

It’s that energy I’m ready to explore now.

A month ago, in a private meditation, I put my intention and energy out and said, “I am ready to take the next step. I want to learn who I really am and why I’ve been led here. I also need some more energy healing. Please help me to find these things.” It was the next morning that my new psychic friend showed up at my door with a powerful shaman healer. A woman who the intuitives around here call, “The queen woo woo of all the woo woo’s.” I would describe her as a shaman’s shaman…her healing wouldn’t even be appropriate for “mass consumption.” She showed up with my friend, both of them saying, “we felt Diana needed to meet you.”

As soon as Diana steps up on my porch she starts channeling and falls into a pose Maia explains is the “Mayan shaman.” She channels a number of ancient, shaman healer’s spirits…evidently, the Mayan shaman only comes out when she feels something damned powerful. When she finally comes in and sits down she says that the room is full of entities and protective spirits that are always around me and that they are asking her to help me. They tell her that they know my journey has been difficult and that they want her to make me more “comfortable” (I’ve at times suffered horrible pain from large amounts of energy becoming blocked…or unblocking.)

She starts speaking to me in an ancient language she is channeling and my soul and heart, somehow, understand her strange words….which sound kind of native american. she says it’s Star Language and that she was told by brazilian and american native shaman that the roots of native american lauguage came from the star people. It’s true, that I’ve read numerous places about these legends…most recently, reading the story of Manataka and Rainbow Woman .

Still, this idea is a pretty big leap for me, right now. Diana asked me several questions about my childhood and health: did I have a lot of allergies, did I always feel so different from my family, did I always pretty much rely on my own resources, etc. Then she said it was all completely understandable because I was a star seed and that many of us were in our last incarnation and were waking to our true selves. We were all being called and were gathering in a number of power spots all over the world. There were reasons for us to be there that would be revealed in their own time. (intriguing…)

Diana did this huge healing ceremony on me…rather, 4 or 5 of the shaman entities did the energy/sound healing…all singing and entonating in different, ancient languages. All’s I can say is that it was very strange, a little scary and very, very powerful. The most powerful thing I’ve ever experienced. Afterwards I felt completely different, lighter and clearer and I was channeling and high on energy for days…giddy on it. Diana also had special messages for me directly from my entities/guides…all of the messages were so loving and validating and comforting…that I’m doing the right thing, that everything is going to be wonderful, that I just need to hang in there and keep doing what I’m doing. It was like warm hugs from long-lost friends/relatives…I can’t explain it. Amazing.

I still feel different and in ways I have not even totally been able to absorb, yet. So, this has launched me full-on into another level of the spiritual journey. Every phase continues to be as wonderous and strange and challenging as the last.

Ahh, and lest I start questioning the validity or purpose of this whole experience I remind myself that I privately asked/prayed to my guides and the goddess for just what showed up at my door. It was unasked for and was given free. In fact, after the healing, Diana hugged me and thanked me for trusting her to do this for me. She said she was honored. This is not the first time someone has gifted me with healing and then thanked me for it. Interesting.

So, slowly, as I consciously integrate all these changes I’m seeing more of the direction my life needs to move in. I don’t think it means more computer work, either, even though I have had many intriguing projects this month. Actually, I was compelled to look into a part time job as one of the cartakers of a local woman who has Alzheimer’s. After I met her and interacted with her (Jaye) her daughter hired me almost instantly (surprise!)

I am learning (or re-learning?) that I’m actually very good at this kind of interaction…the subtle shifts needed to help keep things on an even keel. My friend, Lane told me that, “as a community, we need to start doing a better job of taking care of our own neighbors.” I totally agree. After just a few days spent with Jaye I cannot believe what an amazing woman she is and how good it makes me feel.

Double intriguing…

So, on to the next phase of my life. One that brings me closer to my purpose as an energy worker, teacher and artist.

People ask me over and over again, “what do you want for your birthday, Dawn? what can i give you??” I just tell them that I already have exactly what I’ve always wanted….a new life.

For my birthday I actually had a job interview in the morning. In the evening, all I wanted to do was gather at my favorite beach with some wine and friends and watch the sunset and splash around in the surf a bit.

Yesterday, I got up early and dug potatoes at the garden. Red, fingerling, gold and my favorite….the purple ones. They are like big, iridescent easter eggs and when I find one I have to clean off the sandy soil off and hold it up to admire it for a few minutes. They are so pretty. Two of my garden group showed up (one a founding member of the land trust and an herbalist) and we gathered calendula flowers and chamomile flowers to make medicinals.

Later, I took Calina for a picnic lunch underneath a special secret, ancient tree…we call her the grandmother tree. Then we went up into a meadow on the side of Neahkahnie and gathered wild mugwort, for smudge, and St. John’s Wort flowers to make an oil with.

On Thursday, when Calina came over, I was cleaning up a deer skeleton I had found in the sand dunes…I figured I could display the skull and use the rest of the bones for a wind chime or “cougar caller” as I call it or something

Talk about a witchy birthday….hahaha!

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What it all means.

This blog has documented a journey I have been on this past year.  I wasn’t really sure what it meant or where I was going….just that strange (and wonderful) things were happening to me, my intuition was going through the roof, and I needed to learn some new skills, find a new place to reside, and find teachers and friends that could help me.

I found that, here, on the north Oregon coast, and the past year has been spent in a deep, shamanic-like process with much reflection, time in nature, time alone (first time for me!) and learning skills that would help me, meditation, chanting, energy work, new spiritual ideas, etc.

Here is what I’ve found out:
I’m ascending and achieving a higher, vibrational level
Many people, like me, were drawn here and live here
We are all learning and are here for a reason
This didn’t happen by coincidence
We need to help “wake up” others and to help them through the ascention process
It’s just starting to get good….

This is a site about ascension that my friends and I have found to be helpful/validating:  www.whatsuponplanetearth.com

Personally, I am considering offering some online information about lucid dreaming/dreaming with intent as well as in-person spiritual tours of the local area with opportunities to connect through the energy and spirit world, through me, as we experience nature.

If you are going through some challenges you think may be related to ascension there are a list of ascension symptoms here: http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com/APsymptoms.htm

Feel free to post a question or comment and I will respond asap!

Shedding your skin: life amongst the intuitives

As a highly-intuitive person, I have lived a lot of my life feeling like I didn’t fit in with the “normal” groups of people. As a child, I ended up spending much time with the animals and out in nature. Sometimes I’d spend hours, high in the tops of my favorite climbing tree, just watching the birds and feeling the wind rock me in my perch. I’d watch and sometimes listen in on any people, adults and children, who wandered beneath the tree. They usually had no idea I was there, above, watching and listening to them. This really became a metaphor for my relationships with groups of people … living amongst them but, somehow, not on the same plane.

Large groups are the worst. Public school was torture and I was often picked on and even beaten. I couldn’t even raise a fist to defend myself because the idea of causing pain or harm to someone else was too overwhelming.

So, now, I live in this amazing place that I was “called to,” by my intuition. Many others who live here were drawn to this place in the same way. Something about the place and this community.  So, despite the size of these 3 villages there is a huge proportion of people, here, who are intuitive and gifted.

Now, you would think that I’m in Nirvana, right? Well, yes and no. Have you ever stopped to think what life would be like if most of your friends knew whether were telling the truth or not, most of the time? What if having a really bad night meant that some of your friends would wake up feeling it, too? Or where your emotional pain can become their pain? Believe me … there is no more “faking it.”  It’s like standing there without your skin.  A very naked feeling, indeed.

Well, I wasn’t quite ready for that. It doesn’t mean I’m not up for the challenge but when I started to get a real sense of how much we all really impact each other and the world around us, just with our thoughts, it made my head swim. I am working a lot with meditation and intention, but I swear, it’s some of the toughest work I’ve ever done. Calesthentics for the brain … advanced yoga for the mind.

Anyway, back to living in a community of intutives …

Put the shoe on the other foot. What if you can really “see” a person, through-and-through. Their intention. Their soul.  As well as those things that we all struggle with: fear, bias, anger, self-doubt, deceit.

How often do we tell little “white lies,” to others … to ourselves? What if we can’t do that anymore? If we are laid bare, good things and bad; are we and our friends able to really handle that?

It’s quite an exercise. A real mind blower, at first.

But, then, I realize that this is how it’s supposed to be. All of these layers of subterfuge and deceit are what need to be stripped away. They are energy-wasters and have no place in an evolved society. So, those of us who choose to accept this challenge, to live and work amongst our new communities and continue to evolve together… we will eventually be able to strip off all unnecessary layers.

We will shed those dull, dead skins and stand shiny and new and reborn in nothing but our pure essences… free from the fears and the self-deceit. And I wonder what being in a community of us will be like, then?

That’s what keeps me going

Cats can show you the way

I keep having wild and domestic cats connect with me in unusual ways. Looking further into that, I found this on a website:

“The Cat

According to author Ted Andrews of Animal Speaks, cats wild or domestic have certain qualities in common. They are associated with myth and lore, magic and
mystery. Nine lives, curiosity, independence, cleverness, unpredictability and healing. Those with this medicine should also study its color, size and breed for a
deeper understanding.

Cats have more rods in the retinas of their eyes which enable them to see effectively in the dark. The dark is often associated with mankind’s fears. Since the car is at home in the dark, it serves as a valuable ally into the world of the supernatural and the unknown and can help those with this totem move through their fears efficiently.

The energy field of a cat rotates is a counterclockwise direction, the opposite of a human energy field. Because of this, cats have the ability to absorb and neutralize energy that affects humans in a negative way. This is part of the healing medicine that the cat holds.

If something affects you in a negative way place a cat on your lap or find a cat to pet. Your energy field will immediately realign itself and inner balance will be restored.

Because of their x-ray vision, acute hearing and high intelligence they were used throughout history as guardians and protectors. In ancient Egypt cats guarded the temple gates and were used to ward off evil.

If cat appears in your life the blending of magic and mystery is at hand. A trustworthy teacher, the cat will guide you into the world of self discovery and transformation.”

http://www.sayahda.com/cyc1.html

New family photos

Alright, I’m a sap for this stuff. So, indulge me.

It’s weird to sit here and watch the economy go through this melt down

I am sensitive to people’s emotions and have been feeling the general panic and fear in the air all month. That part is hard. I really sense that because of their fear the majority of people are making drastic modifications to their spending habits. The scale that I am feeling it on is strong enough and widespread enough that it can really dump fuel onto the fire and make everything slide even farther. Part of the panic is that people have lost trust in the system, the government, etc., and are starting to question everything they have previously accepted as fact.

So many of us have held onto jobs we don’t really like because we think we need health insurance as well as pay for housing and things we think are necessary to sustain ourselves and our families.

A lot of us have to have the big price-ticket education to get the jobs to pay for these things. We have to have the cars and the clothes to go to the jobs. It’s such a soul-crushing, vicious cycle and a distraction from what’s really important.

When we start to find out that the health insurance is just paying for surgeries, medications and tests we really do not need (mostly) and that we can live more simply and that the educational system is really just another big business the larger picture starts to emerge.

We begin to see the bigger picture and to realize that so much of this is a trap and a distraction. It’s the ugly side of capitalism … a system that creates and markets artificial needs, fake disorders/diseases, inflated job requirements, all while peddling a sense that the mainstream is where we all should strive to fit.  Social and political bias is in store for those who don’t live in accordance with these “norms.”

When you DO get off that merry-go-round and start getting back to basics it’s amazing how many of those things we thought we needed are not needed, at all. Taking back responsibility for shaping our own lives and health and communities is where it all has to go…where it all has to go for us to survive these changes and build a new way of living.

Spider epiphany…

Interesting that I just got an email from a guy I know…I only hear from him a few times a year. We met and had some big chemistry and then he went home to Lake Tahoe…and we continue to email, infrequently…

So, his email was a reply, of my reply…this big thread. I could follow it all the way down to when I told him about being sick because some spider bit me. I checked the date and then it started to make some weird kind of sense…in time and space.

The spider bit me over the same weekend that Mike died. Or just a few days prior. It happened right before I launched into this spiritual journey.

I have not figured out what my fear of spiders is really about but I know that I have often called, following my intuition, “following the thread.”

Are the threads part of a web? Am I afraid I’ll be trapped? Am I afraid to meet, “Her,” the great spinner of all these threads???

More to think about…

Kill your refrigerator!

Okay, now I really have something to think about; life without a refrigerator.

I didn’t even realize that some people choose to live without one (they choose that??) until I came face-to-face with it at my friend’s house. It didn’t even register, at first, until I took a more careful look at Lane’s kitchen, today, and I realized she really wasn’t kidding. They don’t have a fridge. Huh? Go figure. Then she started explaining how you really don’t need a fridge for most food items.

Yet another notion about something we think we have to go out and work hard for because we must have these “necessities” just to live. WRONG!

Talk about a mind-blower. So, now, what else have we been raised to think we “must have” that we really don’t need at all? TV, fridge, car, car insurance, electricity to run the stuff, gasoline, the newest fashions, razors, anti-depressants, MRIs, elective surgery, techno-gadgetry?? How many of us work jobs we hate because we need to money for these things?

It boggles my mind.

I did a little poking around on Google and saw that there are, in fact, more people going totally “off the grid.” Here is a blog from a guy who has been OTG for 30 years or something…wow!

http://littlebloginthebigwoods.blogspot.com/

AAAAAAAAArachnophob-EEEEEEEE-ia

I’ve been having an intense fear of spiders since last spring. That’s when a spider bit me on the butt when I was sleeping. I’ve had that happen, before. I get an allergic reaction to certain spiders and the bite gets red and hot and itchy and very large. That happened the last time but I also felt unwell for about 4 days. I researched types of spiders and, based on my reaction and how the bite area looked came to the conclusion that it was probably a jumping spider that bit me.

After that I became quite fearful of being bit and getting sick, again. I frequently wake in the middle of the night, out of a deep sleep, thinking I feel something crawling on me and jump up, switch the light on and shake out all the covers.

This is quite a bummer.

Especially, since, sometimes it IS a spider crawling on me. See, the sad thing is that this place I’m living in has more spiders and spider webs per square foot that any place I’ve ever lived in. I knock the webs down and clean and put the little arachnids out into the cold and they keep coming back.

One night I stumbled into the bathroom, switched the light on and to my horror there was a spider on my face. AAAAAAACCCCKKKK!!!

A few nights ago, when I was watching a movie, one raced over and down my hand. Not fun at all. So then I get to start having the night panic thing all over again.

I got a few specimens of the spiders I have around here (they do weave funnel, shaped webs) and pretty much ruled out that they were anything like Hobo’s, brown recluse or black widows…that takes a bit of the edge off the panic.

Oh, and the fact that my cats hunt down and eat the spiders. They even warn me if they see on on the ceiling or wall. They are my guardians.

So, now I’m thinking about what this spider thing means. It keeps coming up, it won’t go away. I’m being bugged. I was bit in the butt because I needed a kick in the butt about something? Come to think of it, I was stung in the butt last fall by a yellow jacket… My butt sticks out there so it could just be a target by default, though.

Guess I need to meditate on this one.